I have just found your website and wanted to email you for guidance.
I have been a seeker of Truth for a long time, i have studied everything i could put my hands on, from Advaita vedanta to Joel Goldsmith, not mentioning anything in between.
The teachings of Joel have always touched me deeply, it sets within me a resonance of the recognition of Truth, of my being, of God.
My question is this:
I am growing more and more in God, becoming ever more conscious of my oneness with my Creator, some days the recognition is very deep and it is almost effortless, my conscious awareness of my oneness with God is all i experience Life becomes magical an adventure of deep deep Love and yet there is periods sometimes quite long 2 weeks or more when it is as if the veil is put back on and again i feel seemingly separate from God, but all through it a deep trust and knowing never wavers, that whatever it seems to appear i know the Truth ” I and my Father are one”, so i just go through my day waiting for the veil to lift again. in those moments my mind is continuously trying to bring me down, doubting and telling me it is all a waste of time, this oneness that i experience is all imagination.
What i would like to know is, is this normal this experiencing without a shadow of a doubt of my true Being and my Source, that i am never separated from Him and later being back in the dream of separation, as no one seems to speak about this, the way they explain seems like once you have realized your oneness that is it, yes they do speak about the difficulties that are faced along the way, but not of “losing” their conscious awareness of it.
Also, what is there to be done in those days when I feel separated, nothing?
Thank you, i hope my email makes sense.
Yes, these periods of seeming separation are normal – we all experience them to one degree or another along the way. What we “experience” however, is not as important as the change in Consciousness, in our perception, that happens through Revelation – that is permanent, but not necessarily something we will “feel”. Remember, anything we sense in our mind or body, is always temporary as it is the effect, and the “material” imitation of Reality, not Reality Itself. The Truth of our Being is invisible and incorporeal.
Truth is also infinite – Oneness is infinite, so there is never an “end” to Self-Realization. In fact “waking up from the dream” is just the beginning! “In my Father’s house, are many mansions…”.
As long as there is still a sense of a “me” separate from I, we will seem to experience separation, but once we have the realization of our Oneness, we can never lose our conscious awareness of It, because we are It – we are Awareness Itself. That is why there is a “deep trust and knowing that never wavers” (beautifully stated!). To the degree that we entertain a belief in a separate self, that is the degree that a “separate sense of self” will be right there waiting for that opening, that crack in our spiritual insulation, and will test the strength of our abiding in Truth.
The I of your Being is all that exists. Period. It is omnipresent, omniscient and omnipotent. It Knows what It is doing and is unfolding in and as Perfect Grace – in Perfect Order and Perfect Harmony. Anything that suggests itself to be other than this must be turned away from, ignored.
This is such an individual “process”, and our experience of Grace, is completely unique to us. So trust and have faith that Grace is flowing and functioning exactly as it is supposed to, for you.
The best thing to do during those periods where you feel disconnected is to be in Silence, surrendering totally to the Now, resting in the allness of your True Identity. Waiting for the veil to lift again, is actually an acknowledgment that there is really a veil – that illusion exists. Nothing can separate us from God but a belief.
We must continuously keep our attention on Truth – a constant acceptance of what Is, and a constant indifference to what isn’t. As our conviction of the truth of Oneness deepens, and as we are vigilant in turning from the appearance, the periods of feeling separated will become less and less, and abiding will become more and more effortless and automatic. The more we are willing and able to be that transparency, to create that vacuum, the more the Light shines and we can See who we really are.
It’s all about Silence and Identity – Be still and know that I Am God…All is well, always…
You have answered my question beautifully, thank you.
Your explanation soothed me and enabled me to rest, no matter how the seeming separation is I just rest knowing the Truth of my being.
God is my whole being, therefore i am never separated from my Creator even if the experience says otherwise.
Right now my oneness with God is, the feeling of separation has disappeared and I am in Love, the more i rest in that Love that God is, the more i experience our oneness, God is I and my heart is full of joy and unbearable gratitude.
Also, whatever unharmonious appearances, there is nothing for me to do, “the battle is not yours” I do not even believe it is God’s battle either, as there is nothing to fight against, God does not need to battle anything, as He is the only Power, The only One, what would He have to battle against? nothingness? He is the Light that I am, therefore this Light dissolves whatever appears as darkness.
Thank you so much for your support, i very well know that these “separation” will happen again, but each time i am stronger in the Truth and new revelations are born from it,